My E-diary

It’s the midterm holidays…it’s just started and I am already starting to feel a bit bored…Gone are the days where the holidays were always packed with fun filled activities…Last time, whenever the holidays were here, it was always so filled that it didn’t even feel like holidays…Now…I am just wondering about in my small apartment, in my bright green pyjamas at 4 in the afternoon, trying to figure out what should I do…Even the everyday routine of taking a shower seems like an exciting aventure now…The taSK of stripping naked and fiddling with the taps brings excitment to my boring and aimless life…Rubbing shampoo into my hair and rinsing it out no longer seem like a chore…In fact, it seems almost as fun as going to the movies..I can spend minutes just staring at my mouth foaming with toothpaste…Have you ever stop to feel the toothpaste in your mouth…that cool sensational feeling…Well…you should…It’s fun…That’s all for now, darlings…Tomorrow I am going to take my time and enjoy combing my hair, wearing my clothes…Or even just lie in bed till night…hahaha…Oh well…tomorrow is one big adventure….Take care, loves…Gotta go day dream…

Finally, the exams starts tomorrow…And it’s English….Arrgghhh…And you think it’s a scream of joy? Not! I am scared like hell bout it…For once I am not confident to get an A for that subject…In fact, I am not confident whether I can get a B+ for it let alone an A+…Sigh…Well…Wish me all the best then…I seriously hope I can write a good essay…It’s no longer like last time..That as long as you can string two words together, without any grammar mistakes..You can get an A..Now it’s like so academic…Must be formal language, passive voice and all those crap that I have never learn in my life…And now I have to write an essay!!! Pn. Dana…If I fail my English, I am so gonna get you…hahaha…But seriously…I am totally freaked out!! And it starts at 9…So, please my dear friends…At 7 o’clock Malaysian time…Pray as hard as you can that I can score for my English…That’s all I ask from you all…Thanks…lol…That’s all for now…Gotta go hit the English books…Take care, darlings…Missing ya loads…

P.S. : Italy rules!!! What did Zidane think he was doing???

Nowadays, I don’t have a maid to do my laundry for me…So though I like white, I now prefer to wear black, cos no need to wash so frequently, or so I thought. But just last Saturday, I bought 2 black t-shirts. And so I thought of wearing them to sch today. But when I took it out of the closet, to my horror it was full of lint and it was so obvious on the black background. Who ever said black is not so easy to get dirty has obviously haven’t encountered the lint problem…So white cannot, black also cannot. Sigh…cacat. And another problem… One of my classmates have been rubbing me the wrong way…Really annoyed sometimes…She’s a bit action… Ok..I know I got B for my summary presentation…and she got A- but still…u don’t have to rub the wound with salt… Wait lar…I’ll show you the next time…I’ll get A+ and i’ll rub it in her sore arse… Gosh, writing it also makes my blood boil… If she thinks she’s so good, no need to keep on asking me things bout Bio la… "Sei LC po"…Unfortunately I can’t call her that in her face cos she’s from Hong Kong…Any ideas, darlings? Anything I can call her in Malay? hehehe…I can just call her in the face and she won’t even understand… Well, that’s all my complains bout today…Take care, my darlings…See you guys in 7 months time…

Arrgghhh……….Where did the time go? Why so soon? I need more time…I am not ready yet….Exams are coming up and this is my first one and i’m so nervous that i have been pulling chunks of my hair out. Getting stressed and bald…what a great combination. When I get home, must sign up for Yun Nam Haircare…hahaha…Wonder do they do the eyebrows too? Well, as you all know, the soccer is still on, and yes, i know..the Socceroos didn’t manage to beat Brazil, but still…that’s only one loss. On Tues, if I am not mistaken is with France, must watch and cheer for Australia…lol…Dear darlings…I am coming home soon. Just 7 more months and I can see all of ur beloved faces again…7 more months and I can be in the hot and humid Malaysia…That is something I certianly don’t miss…But by summer, I might be glad to go home, cos the summers here are melting…I might even get a sunstroke..cool! But hopefully i won’t get tan again….Dunno what’s up wif Oz ppl and tanning…They have all this tanning product everywhere…Why want to become so tan? Is being tan that cool? I don’t think so…Back in Malaysia there are all these whitening products, Malaysians trying to become fair and here, Australians are trying to become tan…So cacated…That’s all for now, darlings…Take care, ok? Missing you guys heaps..

Hey, my darlings…How are you guys all over there? I am fine here…Just a bit of fever…Football fever..hehehe…I have been staying up till the morning just to watch the mathches…Must support Austalia, ok? Monday is Australia versus Brazil…Try to watch and shout "Goal!" at the top of your lungs whenever Australia scores a goal, ok? Cos the chances Austalia beating Brazil is quite low…So we, as Malaysians, must always support the underdogs cos we are underdogs as well…hahaha…But i really hope Australia can win the Cup, cos if the Socceroos (Australian team) do, we might get a public holiday…hehehe…I really hope so. I talked with Ah Phoong on Wednesday night, cos just felt like talking to her…She sounded well, and good…I am really glad…I am now just waiting for this year to be over to go home and see you all again…I really miss you guys and form the sound of it (Ah Phoong)….You all miss me too…hahaha…Perasaan…But the first thing I want to do when I get home is gobble down as much "mi fun kou" as I can…I really miss Ah Phoong’s mom’s "mi fun kou" and naughty Ah Phoong always laugh and rub in the fact that she can have it whenever she wants….Someone over there, be a sweetie and hit her for me….hehehe..but not to hard…thanks…That’s all for now, loves..I got to go home…I am now using the uni’s computer cos back home, I can’t get the free internet anymore…lol….oh well…got to go…Take care, darlings….

It’s finally Friday…I know, i know….boo, bcos next Monday, no more holidays for you guys in Malaysia…But YIPPEE for me, bcos the weekends are here and can relax a bit. But even tomorrow, I can’t really relax, bcos there is a school excursion to the Bondi Rock Platform for Biology…Sigh..have to be there by 12 noon. Thank goodness it’s winter now, so at noon it’s normally cloudy and cold. It’s been raining cats n dogs (wonder y cannot be cow and pigs) this week. Once, it rained so much, the trains were shut down. So a few of my classmates couldn’t come to school on time (lucky for them) Sigh…In England, China and other places, when it’s winter, there is snow…But in Australia, when it’s winter it rains…cacat la this weather…As though in Malaysia I have not seen enough rain. My cousin told me an interestin theory bout shiny cars and birds’ shit…Have you ever noticed that if you just had ur car polished/washed, the chances it getting shit on is quite high. According to this cousin of mine, he said it’s bcos if your car is too shiny, it reflects the sky. And when the birds look down at your car, they think they see the sky, and then get scared, bcos how can the sky be beneth them….So…they shit to prove whether it’s really the sky or not. Whichever direction the shit goes, it’s not the sky…So, the shit lands on your shiny car…Dunno whether it’s true or not…but at least it’s an interesting fact…hahah…Take care, darlings…

Today was so cool…and so wet. In the morning, it was so dark that i thought my clock was wrong…But unfortunately it wasn’t and i had to practically drag myself out of bed into the freezing toilet…When I went out…it wasn’t very cold..but my breath came out in steam…How cool is that!!! I was like breathing very hard just to enjoy the sight of the steam…Ppl were like looking at me wondering whether i was ok or having a asthma problem…And then, shortly after i went indoors, it started to rain…Lucky huh? Not!! It was raining the whole day…even now when I type this..it’s still raining. To make things worst, i forgot to bring my umbrella…See how smart can I get…So i had to walk in the rain to get home…I was half frozen by the time I reached my apartment…But my breath still came out in steam…so that was one consulation prize for me…hehehe…Winter is so cool and yet so wet…

Today I went winter shopping with a few of my friends…There are pro and cons shopping here…First, the discounts here aren’t like the ones back in Malaysia. In Malaysia, after discount also still so expensive. But over here…It’s shopping heaven when it’s on sale…So i thought…Oh goody…I can buy some jeans…U know how crazy I am bout jeans. So I went trough the rack of jeans..The sizes are 8, 10, 12, 14, 16, 18 and 20… I thought…ok…I am not skinny…So, 8 is definately out… and I am not that fat…so 20 is a no no too…So I just picked up a 10 and looked at it…Whoa…it’s looks big…So I picked up the smallest, 8 and headed to the fitting room…I tried it on…From the outside it looked ok, but when I tried it on….No……Too big…It was practically hanging off me…Sigh…want to save some money and buy cheap jeans also cannot…So for all those skinny as a rake girl back in Malaysia (e.g Soong, Annie) Don’t think of coming shopping here unless you fatten up a bit….Just a word of advice…hahaha…

Today I didn’t go to school because I wasn’t feeling well…So I was stuck at home doing nothing..which is something I haven’t done in a long time…And I don’t like the feeling just staying at home and not doing anything bcos it makes me things that only gets me upset for no reason. Things that I have been trying to forget just came finding their way into my thoughts and making me really upset…The feeling of hurt that I thought was healing came back to me in full swing…The impact on me was so big it almost made me cry in pain…I shouldn’t have stayed home…I should have just gone to school, though wasn’t feeling very good, but it is nothing compared to the way I am hurting… Nothing can beath that hurt feeling..Not even physical pain…Funny how can some ppl be so happy for awhile and then be so different the next moment…U think Da Vinci Code is very hard to break?? To me…the humans mind is the most mysterious, most impossible to crack…Do u know how ur friend is feeling or what is he thinking of you exactly?? Get my point…?

I was chatting with my friends back home and I got the feeling that they are no longer the tight group we once used to be…And that worries me…I mean, I love all of you, but why can’t we be as close as we used to be…We were like one big family…But now…I fear that the family is breaking apart slowly…Breaking apart not as in going away…But the closeness we once had is slowly fading…I don’t want to go back home and find out that my friends have split adi…I love to refresh the closeness we have together…I know that sometimes friends can be annoying and irritating…But hey…that’s what friends do..They annoy and irritate..But don’t forget they make u laugh and are always there for you too…just have some patience for the old time sake…That’s all I am asking of you…That’s all…Not much…I love you all and I can’t bare to see you all unhappy with each other….Take care, darlings…